This Week I Hit a Wall. Here's Why I'm Not Staying Quiet About It.

I'm going to be honest with you.

This week has been hard.

Not hard in a "busy but managing it" kind of way. Hard in a "I have nothing left" kind of way.

I'm burnt out. And for a little while I did what I always used to do, I blamed myself for it.

How did I let this happen? I know better than this. I teach this stuff.

Here's the reframe that I needed

Somewhere along the way I had slipped back into an old pattern. The one so many of us mums know intimately. The one that says keep going, push through, everyone else comes first.

The tools I have didn't stop life from getting heavy. But they did mean I noticed. And noticing is everything.

I know where that pattern leads. I've lived it before. And I refuse to stay there.

So this week, instead of pushing through, I am calling it out. I am scaling back. I am asking for help where I can. I am treating my own burnout with the same urgency I would treat a physical illness.

Because it is one. And I am pretty much all my boys have... so if I'm not okay, how can they be?

So far my treatment plan has involved, at a very basic level, making sure I walk each day.  I know it always makes me feel better even if the weather is crappy at the moment here in Melbourne.

What I want you to hear

If you are reading this and nodding along. If any part of this sounds like your life right now, please know that you are not failing.

You are a mum who has been carrying too much for too long without enough support.

That is not a character flaw. That is a circumstance that needs to change.

And the first step isn't a long list of self care practices you don't have time for. It's simply this: acknowledging that you matter too. That your okay-ness is not optional. That your kids need you well, not just present.

This needs to stop being the norm for mums. It really does.

And I think it starts with us being willing to say out loud "this is too much" without making ourselves feel worse for saying it.

Something is coming

Next week I'm offering something free that I wish I'd had years ago.  It's my way of saying you don't have to keep carrying this alone.

Keep an eye out for my emails for all the details coming soon.

Much love

Tanya x